Anxiety Mama

The inner thoughts of a normal mom, with abnormalities

Category: writing

My Record Holds!

So for about the third year in a row where I have decided to do NaNoWriMo I am a few days in and have nothing written! At least I am consistent. Now I just have to get my butt in gear.

The big problem that I have with writing, is getting myself to actually start. It’s why blog posts are late, or non existent, and it’s why I sit there and stare at my screen for hours trying to figure out exactly where the screen came from. Trust me, there are only so many ways you can look at the screen of a chromebook trying to figure out how all the information fits on that tiny screen.

From time to time I actually take out the good old stand by of pen and paper, but it takes so much longer to get any writing done that way that I just can’t stand to use it for long stories any more. Though it does make it easier to create, so I often use it to brain storm.

Actually, now that I think about it, I shall grab my notebook and get to work.

Getting Ready for Nanowrimo

For the last five years or so I have attemptedĀ and failed to participate in National Novel Writing Month. I say failed only because I can never get to the 50k word count that they are looking for. It’s not even a ridiculous goal, I just get distracted half way through the month and end up doing pretty much anything else.

This year I have a lot more riding on it. This year the hope is to actually be able to get a novel done, as rough a draft as it may be, so that I can build off of it. It is also going to be used to get my mind out of the writer’s block that seems to have persisted a lot longer than I would like.

So that’s the goal for this year: Kill the writer’s block. Anyone else in?

Business Plans

I have been pretending to start up a business for the last few years. To try and get some writing jobs, or some design jobs. Truth of the matter is, I don’t have the energy that is needed to put in the time. Or I just can’t get over my inability to get myself off the couch and get started on anything that isn’t a nap. I am not sure if it’s depression or just the pregnancy but something isn’t quite where it is supposed to be.

It is getting closer to the time where we really need to be thinking about the things that we need to get before the baby comes, and we just don’t have the money for it. Worse than that, is that I haven’t been able to make money since I stopped working in April. Disability doesn’t give enough to live off of alone, and It’s really important that I can start to get some money rolling in.

I am hoping that I will be able to push myself to get a few more writing jobs under my belt, but I also want to be able to push the things in my Etsy store a bit harder. Which means I am going to have to take a closer look at what I am making to see what I can do to make it better. Perhaps I will need to spend actual time designing things as well. Not just looking at my pretty diplomas.

Speaking of designing things, I am hoping that this site will actually start to look a bit different as the weeks go by. I have to remind myself to practice coping but I don’t think it will be too much of an issue to go through and design my own WordPress theme. I mean I have done it a few times before, just a matter of sitting down and actually practising for a change. The Chromebook allows me to do all the coding, I just have to get the pictures set up. Which with the fall colours finally out, shouldn’t be too much of an issue. I have this wonderful camera that I love to use and just don’t because using it means going outside, and I just don’t do that. Gotta find a way during the week when I am alone to get out there.

 

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